Joining with Five Minute Friday
sponsored by Lisa-Jo Baker. On Friday, Lisa-Jo posts a one word prompt and
for five minutes we write what the prompt brings to mind. No
rewrite, nor editing just letting the words flow.
Today's prompt: Truth
Speaking truth to power.
There is so much speaking about the truth these days and I fear very little actually living it. In recent years I have been appalled to hear
of 'redefinitions' of the word truth, mostly to fit into the philosophy and
give credence to the speakers’ position. It is appalling to me that one would
even attempt to rewrite its meaning there by negating the 'truth' of the word truth.
If you're going to do that, then why use the word at all. It makes no sense.
I have been searching for truth in my life.
The truth about me, of who I am and of the life the Lord has called me to live.
I have found a measure of that truth, I've hit the surface levels, but I have
been increasingly feeling the stirring to dig deeper. To really search out the truth of who
I am. I want to hit the bedrock, the unshakable
solidness, unyielding-ness of who I am. I want to know it to be able to speak this truth to the powers around
me that seek to redefine the truth that is me.
Friends, family, society, and church – all who see me filtered through
their ‘truth’ and seek to ‘redefine’ me into something that will fit their
truth of me. It is a struggle, it is a battle and the greatest weapon I have in
my arsenal is the truth of who I really am. The good, the bad, the ugly. I want
all of it. The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. That's what I want. So help me,
God.
I too have been longing to dig deeper . . . so let's take up our shovels and open up fertile ground for the LORD to sow some amazing seed in us! Dropping by from #FMF. Thanks for writing this and allowing us to read and be inspired.
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I'm digging away! Thanks for visiting Brandi. Please come again soon. :)
Delete~ Cassandra
Good point! I have had to continually dig deeper and DEEPER to figure out the actual truth! For so long, I tried to act tough, to be tough, to survive, that when I got out of my bad situation, it was just an instinct to NOT feel the REAL feelings, to just say "I'm fine" and move on. It took me YEARS of counseling to dig and DIG and figure out why I really was NOT fine. The truth, is sometimes REALLY hard to find! It was so worth it for me.
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
We 'layer up' with so many actions and behaviors to prove how 'fine' we are that getting through all that is really hard work. So glad you stuck it out and found the truth. You encourage me.
DeleteBlessings,
~ Cassandra
How do we ever know "the truth" about ourselves? What I thought about myself in my twenties is so different looking back from fifty years later. Could it be the truth that I'm in my 70s? In my teenage years, I know what I thought was the truth about me was only the gross insecurity that most adolescents have. I thought I was such a special case. Even now, how do I find the truth about myself? Where and how do I look? Is the truth what I see in the mirror? Is what I feel in my heart true?
ReplyDeleteCassandra, I think I just did a few minutes of zinging off your five minutes of writing. Have you found any answers to my questions?
Oh Barbara, I wish I did have those answers. I think the first step to finding the truth is admitting that you don't have it yet. That was one of the hardest things for me to do. I'm peeling the layers away little by little to find where that vacancy is. I think I've always had questions but my time and energy went to taking care of others. Now that I have the extra time, I'm determined to spend a good deal of it finding who I really am at this stage of life and what that 'Me' needs and wants. Then I'm going to get it and hold onto it with both hands.
DeleteAs always, loving your morning prayers. They bless me and enrich my days.
~ Cassandra